Bittersweet end..

Unfortunately we were not able to sell our condo.. :-( So we are going to be taking it off the market. And over the weekend bring back all our stuff out of storage and mom's place. It's sad that we had it on the market since June... And not even one offer. But it's okay because honestly it's a nice condo there's nothing wrong with it. I guess it just wasn't our time to sell. It wasn't meant for us to move into the townhouse right now.. Although the townhouse would have been a sweet place and oh so nice. But what can you do?

But now I can decorate our condo and get ready for xmas!! This will be our little one's first xmas so i want to do it right. I already know where I am going to put our 'christmas' (fake) tree. And going to use our last years decoration and some that i have at mom's from buying the day after last year... So some new ones also. I can't wait to hang all of our stockings.. And we have some xmas presents already so i can wrap those too!! hehehehe

Holiday season..

I can't believe that it is almost Thanksgiving, Christmas and new years. I really enjoy this time of year because families get together and you remember the things you are thankful for. Not that we shouldn't appreciate all that we have on a daily basis but sometimes that gets lost. We live busy lives and feel that we must be on the go. I can't wait to decorate the house with all the christmas decorations. this will be my little baby's first christmas.. And I know that he won't really remember anything that we are going to do but I feel that if we start now and get into the spirit of the holidays that we'll do this every year like it's our first.

And I plan to volunteer again once M is old enough to come with us.. I feel that it's important to give back to the community. So until then we will just have to donate presents to the little children that are less fortunate.

Thinking of others...

So why is it that there are so many people out there that don't think of others? one example of what i am talking about is.. just the other night i went to dinner with some friends to this indian restuarant. we were celebrating our friends' engagement. and even my L mentioned that there isn't a lot of food should we order more. and noticed that by the time that i got the sea bass there was only this tiny piece left with a whole bunch of juice/sauce.. keep in mind that my hubby still hasn't got any. so i said that since he has chicken to eat i will take this.. but he gave a look.. so L gave me some of her's to eat.. and i just gave him the fish and was about to ask if he wanted more and he just wasn't happy with me. and said look over at M's plate (which is L's boyfriend).. so i take a peak and notice that he has a mountain full.. and hubby's is not even have full.. so why is it that while knowing that the amount of each dish isn't a lot that some people take more then their share? is it because they think they won't get enough so they want to take more? not thinking that the unspoken rule of take a little and let everyone get a piece. once that dish goes around you can take seconds.

Having a baby changes everything...

Having a baby changed my life for the good. It's been a challenge getting used to being a mother. I must say that during this life changing time. I am very lucky to have my husband home with me. He has been a big help with the baby. He helps the most during the night. He has been really good about making sure that I am getting enough sleep. Having M in our lives is something so new and exciting. But also very tiring - we take turns changing diapers and rocking him to sleep. When I am holding him I can just stare at him and think I can't believe that we made this cute bundle of joy. Or that he is actually in our lives. But now our lives revolve around him. We plan our days around him. We say that we can go out right after I nurse him.. And we have 3 hours until we have to go back home. I never thought I would be like this but I am. I am sure that after awhile it will get easier.

I am also very lucky to have friends that are willing to come and visit me. S has been really great and visited me a couple of times. I am glad that she has taken the time to call me and ask if she can come over. I lose track of time and when M is sleeping so am I. Or I am on the computer catching up on emails, im, or cleaning the house. And in between that getting a shower in. So I haven't been a very good friend on calling people or asking people to come over. I just hope that they understand and keep calling me.

Nesting...

So I have been told that 'most' every pregnant women go through this nesting phase. so i am 37 almost 38 weeks and i have yet to feel this nesting. i feel that this does not exisit with me. i don't think that this makes me a terrible mom. but wonder why i am not going through it. why don't i have the urge to clean the house? why can't i get enough energy to clean the house? i just get so sleepy after cleaning one room if i even get this far.

engagement, marriage, and baby on the way...

I am very happy with my personal life and happy at where hubby and i are. we got married, bought a condo, and he bought me a doggie for my birthday 2 years ago.. which by the way is the BEST present I could ever ask for. and now a baby on the way... :-D all within 3 years of our marriage.

the only sad part is that it's hard going through this life changing time without another preggo friend. i know people who have had their babies but it would be so nice to go through this with someone. i sometimes feel alone. i don't have anyone to talk to about what they are experiencing or someone to tell me 'get ready for this next month'. my friends are great though - they are always asking me how i am feeling and interested to hear about what i am going through and what not. they are great support systems. i gave it to L, S, and B... i just hope i am not driving them crazy. and M tells me her experiences while she was preggo but she seemed to have such a fantastic one that i can only imagine... thank god for co-workers since i see them so much giving me advice and telling me about what they went through. so i guess in a way as i am writing this i realize i am blessed with friends and co-workers... at least i have that. and how can i forget about my LJ girls... they are the best and even if i haven't met them they give me great advice...

3rd Trimester... what a roller coaster

That picture of my baby is exactly how i have been feeling lately. i can't believe how slow i walk now and sleepy i get. bathroom use is pretty much the same.. i have always had an issue. ;-P but all in all i am enjoying being pregnant. everyone is so helpful and wanting to do things for me. i figure i better take advantage of this since i can. :-D

I now have only 7 weeks until I get to meet this little 'mini guy' (as my friend refers to him). i can't wait. but also very nervous and scared. this little guy will be relying on me for everything! i just hope that i am a good of a mother as some that i know.

Selling a place..

I never knew how much it took to get a place ready to sell. I know have a better understanding.. one day and section of the place at a time. You have to clean the place from top to bottom.. and then you can evaluate the place and see what you will need to do to get the home in a 'show' ready atmosphere. We have gone to many open houses. It's different from home to home. For instance, we have gone to a house where they obviously didn't care about how the house looked. Because one of the bedrooms were not only cluttered with crap but the bed was just the mattress on the ground.. with the covers ruffled up and clothes all over. to the kitchen not being nice.. and then to where the owners obviously do not live in the place anymore and either it is empty or 'staged' where they rented the furniture. i appreciate seeing furniture in a place. it gives me a better understanding of how our things will look. plus when i look at homes i open up all the doors and cabinets to see everything. and what's inside. yes i am nosey...

so with that i started to clean the place.. now i have decided to pack items that we won't need or use for the next 3 or so month.. this will get the clutter out. and by cleaning and getting ready it is making me throw stuff out that we don't need anymore. so i started last night by cleaning my closet. my closet now has items that i fit and there is no crap lying around. i already have a list of to dos..

like i said one down and ten million more to go. let the nesting beginning.

Having a baby

I didn't realize that there are so many things to think about when having a baby..

For instance what to bring to the hospital.. To sign up for classes or not. and if so which ones. What the baby's room should be like. What to buy for the baby? now there are so many different options for just a stroller mind you that you don't want me to get started on what kind of car seat to get. but it's true and some of the stuff is more for parents and what they like and style. for instance i like this brand of stroller by bugaboo. but then when i really thought about it i decided against it. was i getting it because i really liked it or because i have seen it pop up in my instyle magazine and other celebraties using it. the other decision factor is that it's way expensive. so that wasn't worth it to me.

But it is fun going to babies r us with the hubby and deciding what we like and don't like. it's just hard because we want to make the right decision and don't want to buy the wrong item. or one that can harm the little guy. thank god we have some friends whom already had a baby and can ask questions to.

but i am not going to let all this take away from enjoying being pregnant or the fact that we are going to get to meet this mini guy in may!

Valentines Day - To Celebrate or Not..

I don't want to give the wrong idea about me not being a romantic. But aren't holidays supposed to make most people happy? I once had a close friend that this holiday seemed to make depressed. All because she was single and didn't have that special person. I try to do a little something for everyone. But it is still hard for me to this day to really celebrate a holiday that not only seems very commerical but that can make someone feel bad about themselves. So the hubby and i usually just exchange cards and I give a little something to the family. But I don't do more than that. Plus shouldn't you always treat your other half like it v-day everyday?

Friends and other halves

i guess you can pick your friends but you can't pick who they will fall in love with. you just have to hope and pray that they know what they are doing. i love L to death and can only wish her the best. and pray that the person she chooses to be with ends up being a good person. it's hard when you don't get the best of feelings/vibe when you meet someone. or that you wonder if they are really right for someone. or what are their 'real' intentions with your friends.

i guess i have always been the one out of the three of us that is harder on the guys that my friends chooses to be with. but with time i usually warm up and end up liking them.. or for some of those ex's still HATE with a passion. but very glad that they wake up and smell the coffee. it's just i feel that it should come natural on feeling comfortable and wanting to be friends. but also i feel that the boys SHOULD be proving themselves to not only our friends that they are with but the other two friends. of course no butt kissing but honestly being somewhat of themselves and showing us that they are good people.

so what do you do when the guys start off on a bad foot? obviously from what i have experienced lately he just avoids you like anything. and your friend doesn't really do anything to try and make it better.

therefore, i am trying a different approach to the situation. which is also a goal of mine for 2006. i am not the one that may or may not marry this 'interesting and different' person. which i have nothing in common with but L is our only common ground. and maybe that we both enjoy the arts. not sure if they are the same but we love the arts and music. so anyways, i am trying to be open minded and nicer to the person.. yes i am the type of girl that wears her emotions on her shelves.. (unfortunately if i do not like or trust you - you will know it. must be the cancer in me) but for L i will do anything to make her happy. cuz i know she would do the same for me. i know that she is the type that even if she doesn't care too much for the person she doesn't show you.. and that's not being fake but i will think of it as giving the person a chance. and try to just be friends but i will only go so far Less than halfway because to me he should be the one trying not me. i am giving this a couple months to see how this goes... but if i don't see a difference then we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

Cooking together...

well i haven't really cooked since i have been pregnant. because smells just haven't been my friend..

but last night was nice. D and i were cooking together last night since i can't remember.. and then we ate dinner and watched some tv.. and of course we had some conversation in between. and then the wonderful husband that he is cleaned whatever dishes i didn't wash yet. i am one of those anal people that have to was the dishes that i used to prepare the dinner as we go. so it was just the rice cooker thing, wok, and the dishes we ate dinner with. but still that was very nice of him. then i was ready for bed.

what a nice evening to a long busy day.

2006 Goals..

Okay so I had the weekend to think about this....

I have made a list of items that I would like to have goals for:

1. Try and see my other friends more.. Than just email or call...

2. Take Belle to the dog park more often

3. Work out again.. Need to be in shape to push this baby boy out.

4. Be a better wife (eg. cook more often, be nicer, and so on..) The cooking will have to be after the baby cuz smells still get to me.

5. Save money.. Stop spending on things that I don't need just cuz they are on sale.

6. Try at least 2 new adventures/things...

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Leaving a couple blank just in case I think of something else.

Thoughts for the day...

So I am feeling very chipper today.. Not sure why but I am. But I will take it ever since my surgery i have felt BLAH.. And just wanted to lay in bed and do nothing. Maybe it's cuz I am getting out more again... Of course starting out slowly. I started back at work on Monday; S came over to keep me company; hung out with C and L last night; and have felt Mason moving around at least once a day for a period of time since Monday. It's so nice to see the girls again. I really missed them over the two weeks that i was basically recovering. I must remind myself that i need to tell them to just call me and come over. Not wait for me cuz i become L-A-Z-Y!!!

Still no resolutions for 2006. But I haven't thought about it. Do we really need to make resolutions each and every year? Shouldn't we just be a work in progress on all aspects of our life?

I am not sure but I am the type of person that likes to have goals so that I can work towards something. If you were a Friends watcher.. I am such a 'List Person'... I love making lists... I make a list of what i need to buy before going to the grocery store - although i usually end up leaving more than i wrote down. but whose keeping track. when going on vacation i always have my handy dandy list to make sure i don't forget ANYTHING!!

Great Life

So it's 2006 and time to decide on my new years resolution.. i usually have at least one item that i want to work on. but i haven't decided what exactly i want to choose. i am thinking working on being more patient with my husband.. but who knows. i sometimes wonder if it's worth having a new years resolution. i try to stick to it but then sometimes it's hard. should i have one or not?

i am really looking forward to the new year. i am hoping that my sister will become engaged. s and j will get married and have a little one on the way. and i get to meet mason!!