If you could change something would you?

I was talking with my mom the other day and I was telling her that I know I haven't made the best decisions sometimes. But I wouldn't change anything - I went through for anything... I feel that if I changed anything I wouldn't be who I am today. i appreciate my family and friends so much more now that I know they are important to me. I have learned from my mistakes too. I feel bad for some of the decisions that I made but at the time I honestly felt I was making the right now.

For instance, I would have tried harder with one of my friends. We went through so much and we've known each other since middle school that I wish I didn't stop talking to her when we went to college. Due to the way she treated her ex boyfriend at the time. Which was a mutual friend. That was between them not me, him and her. She was someone that was very important to me and sad that I did what I did. But as the saying goes I made my bed so I had to lay in it. Fortunately, we connected later on in life and are friends again. I sometimes want to just hug her and say I am so SORRY!!! Because I know we'll never be close again. But we'll be friends. She is definitely someone I want to try to make the friendship last with. Plus when we hang out (the rare times that we do) it's like no time has past and we are just catching each other up on what's going on. I do hope she knows how much she means to me and how happy i am that she forgave me for being a B&8tch to.

I feel that I haven't been in a relationship where I wasn't cheated on ever. But to be honest I was a cheater once so we all have to experience that. It's made me stronger and appreciate D a lot more. :-D I lucked out with marrying the man that I did. So I guess I had to go through all to because I needed to learn what a good man was like. LMAO Not that D is perfect but we all have faults.

I feel we experience and make choices in life because it's what's meant to happen for a reason.. We may not like the reason at the time but there's always a reason. And we are never handed anything that we aren't able to handle. Plus it's important to have good support to lean on also. We shouldn't feel that we have to carry everything on our shoulders.