Monday, July 06, 2009

to let go...

how do you let go of something in your past? i experienced something that i would never wish on anyone as a teenager. i thought i got over it and when i confronted the person and got a reaction i thought i wouldn't get. i thought he'd feel so bad and sorry for his actions. but the totally opposite was his reaction. so now i realize that i am still not fully over that part of my life.

one of my friends that i talked to said that i can't let it bring me down. and she wouldn't let me do it. i am a good person she said.

i have always felt that you get what you put out. so is she right? or am i being punished for what i have done or said to someone? i know i am a harsh person and brutally honest when sometimes i should bite my tongue.

so how do i mentally get over this? how do i lay this to rest and just move on? am i really a good person? or do i deserve this?

i honestly haven't had much time to think or lay this to rest but i need to in order to be a better person. but HOW????!?!?!?!?

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