Hello I am 30 something not 16..

where do i start??? i just semi-caught up with a friend and mark her up as still being in high school. she even admitted that she liked the high school drama and so on. my question is why???? i am 30-something and happily married (for the most part) with a baby and dog. I enjoy my time watching tv, playing with my son and/or my dog, and so on.

i was talking to her and she mentioned another mutual friend that she really hasn't talked to in awhile because she felt like the friendship was one sided. that she would listen to JJ's problems and whatever was going on with her. But then when C would talk about hers JJ would say i have to go. So I mentioned that i can understand because i just lost a friend for something similar. i don't need to deal with that 'high school' drama. she made a comment back to me that she liked high school drama and felt like a 16 year old. so as we talk some more all i could think about is... C hasn't changed really and do i want this in my life? i don't need anymore friends than i already have. the ones that i have mean the world to me and when i talk or spend time with you it's because i want to. i am taking time away from spending with my son to hang out with you. is she worth that? and the other thing in my head is that why would anyone want to re-live high school??? not that i regret anything but i never want to go through it.

New beginnings.. and my goals for the year

2 things i am grateful for....

1. For A taking the time to hang out and show me all the new things he has done to remodel his home. And for going out to dinner with me.

2. For my mom and sister - i love how they come over every thursdays... it's supposed to be where D and i can either do something together or separate.

I still don't have all my goals figured out:

1. I need to learn to just listen.... I need to learn to listen and not give unwanted advice. i am going to try and just not say anything unless asked what do i think... bite my tongue.

2. Appreciate all that i have and get out of the 'give mes'

3. Try and see friends more..

4. try to work out at least 3 times a week.

5. try to stick to my budget... i need to make a new one with M going to a new daycare and added amount.

6. Try to go on a family trip this year - need to make yearly ones.

7. Be nicer to D - I am so bad. I yell way too much at him when he tries so hard to make me happy.

8. Every night write down two things that i appreciate for the day.

9. Take 10 mins for myself every day..

10. Start reading again - 1 book a year..

11. Keep our home clean and redecorate the place to be what i really want.... But on a budget - need to watch design on a dime more.

12. Learn to just 'be'.... Relax, breathe and take everything in.

13. Get to know myself..... Learn what makes me really happy.

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I think that's enough for now.