Only me..

So last night I locked myself out of the condo last night... had to wait for mom to come and let me back in.. thank god she doesn't live too far away from me. my emergency person wasn't home. i will now carry my cell phone with me at ALL times.

roller coaster...

Life is strange sometimes.. you are constantly on a roller coaster and you don't know how long you are going to be going up and down.. turned side to side or if it's going to be straight for a little bit. the straight away is always nice but i guess in order to learn and grow you need the ups, downs, left and rights. so right now i am going on a up and down part phase of my life. but it seems like i am always on that part. but honestly it's okay because i know in the end it will be okay. sometimes it is hard to go through and i wonder why i have to go through it. but in the end i always feel stronger and closer to whomever i go through it with.

Choices...

So I am thinking about how my life is and life in general. I am a true believer in fate/destiny.. but when we are faced with two or more paths to take and we choice one over the other/s.. is it really us choosing the path or are we somewhat lead onto the path we are about to go on? or no matter what fate is going to guide us to go through it one way or another.. it may not be today or the next day but we'll somehow go the way that fate wants...

On Boys.... i am a firm believer that when you are in a relationship you learn more and grow. for instance when my ex cheated on me - i learned the signs so that i would know that the next guy is not right for me. but by that person doing that action it helped make me a stronger person. and i learned how to heal from the emotional pain. and that i deserve better and that he just wasn't the right person for me. but he was a better friend than boyfriend. i didn't want to lose him as a friend because we were friends first and he really knew me. then there was the guy that helped me learn that i don't need to go out all the time. it's nice to stay home - cuz i am not missing anything. the party scene will always be there. and that there was someone out there could appreciate me. he loved the lame things that i did. he thought i was funny. but turned out that he and his friends had a lot of growing up to do.. even if he was older than me and that i wasn't the right girl for him. but he helped me grow up and appreciate 'my time alone'. and also that family is important and to appreciate having them. and of course in between there were guys that came and went in my life.. but there was one that also was there for me.. he waited patiently while i grew up and experienced life.. he introduced me to different kinds of food (not to mention SPICY). he taught me that love is unconditional. he loves me for me.. he pretty much knows me inside and out and still is there for me.. with all my bad habbits and roller coaster of a life that i gave him he still proposed and we have been married for a little over two years.. and he bought me the best birthday present ever last year. what you ask? he bought me my very first puppy ever.. my very own and we even picked her out together. he isn't just my husband but my very best friend... fate made it so that i would go through all the ups and downs with the other boys so that i would cherish and appreciate what i have now. and boy do i ever. he is one of the best things that walked into my life. :-D love you hubby.

friends.. i believe that there are different kinds of friends.. the ones that only come and go out of your life is because you both are helping each other through whatever that is going on currently. then there are the friends like L and S the ones that are in it for the long run.. the ones you can call sisters. the ones that know you inside and out as well and still love you. of course we don't share everything but most everything.. they are the ones that when you go through something in life whether it be good or bad they too are feeling what you are. as well as the other way around. they are the ones that you know even if they get on your nerves and you get on there's that it'll be cool the next day.. or if not that you know you can talk about it and smooth everything over. they are apart of you.. the ones that if something good happens to they are the ones to call (or bad). then there are ones like B.. from just being co-workers to having a real friendship.. the one you can ask to go to lunch with or walks.. and have nice conversations with. the one that you know you can share secrets with and know that you can still trust... the one you find that you have some things in common with and can't explain why you just like hanging out together. then there are other friends that you have known for years and can get together with as if no time has passed because you are just catching up and enjoying each other's company... i have a lot of friends like this.. i know it's not either of our faulta that we can't always see, talk, chat on im or email a lot but we are cool like that. they know i love and care for them and i hope it is the same for them to me. then there are friends that you just don't have anything in common with and you both just give up on the friendship.. that's okay too because we are going on different paths and will hopefully meet again later on in life. no hard feelings just a shame that we can't still go through life together.

Family.. need i say more.